PARADISE

I'm on my way down
The water rises up, takes hold
Slams me up against a wall
I cannot move my arms
I can't register the cries

Hearing only what I want to hear
Knowing nothing but my needs
I'm on a sinking ship
The ship that I will stay on
Downwards I'm slipping
Further

Taking nobody down with me
I don't want this any more than you
I have to go and that could mean
That I'm not following your words
I'm finding my own way to hell
Don't want your help to pull me out

Where I am, the sky is black
There are no clouds
There is no rain
Down here, I'm living how I want
With just one candle
With all the warmth I need

I may be living on this earth
But my soul is not a part of it
I don't want this war
I don't need the hate
I can't bear to see the sky fall in

I'm dwelling in my own world now
With all the friends I need
Me, myself, and I
Alone with everyone I want
Taking comfort in all the things
That I've created
The walls that stand forever high

I'm fearful of where the earth is going
The end is not far from this day
I'm careful not to be around
When it all falls, when it all breaks
When the water washes it away
That's why I left to find paradise

I'm not afraid of what I can't change
It's the things I can that scare me
When I'm prepared I know I'll lose
But lead me into a trap
And there's no chance that I can die

Sailed down under all the problems
I'm caught beneath the ocean bed
And sadness fills the hollow
But joy is what I breathe
It's only what I know I need
That I can't have in the real world
But where I lay right now
I make my own rules
And I have everything I need

Earth is only a factory
Of mass production
Making death
Selling suicide
I have escaped the terror
And I like the way I'm heading
Because the everlasting black is there
To make me feel at home
My candle I hold with me
Makes sure I'm not alone