25 November 1998
Painful Resemblance

The mirror reflects the person that I don’t want to be
Sometimes I convince myself
Sometimes I know I’m right
But I know that I am wrong, crying myself to sleep at night

In dreams I see the world I knew
In dreams my life is real
But then I wake and I can’t take
Anymore of the pain I feel

Self inflicted, yes I know
Love is suicide
But there’s only so much that one can do
Only so much I can hide

I say I live in shame,
But if I had my time again
I’d probably do the things the same
But I regret it now

If it feels good why not go on
Smiles were rare
And are now extinct
I ask myself, why did I do it
But I have to force myself to think

Everywhere I turn
This reflection haunts me still
I see the one who caused the pain
I see the one that is to blame
I see myself consumed by shame
All I see is me.