NINETY SEVEN


Cannot concentrate
Mind is not awake
Cannot explain
The way I feel
Nobody would listen anyway

Can't talk
To anyone but me
It isn't great conversation
One of me always knows
What the other's going to say

Taken by the nothing
That's what I feel
Nothing

One love upholds
My will to live
And in the end
Love overturns my hate
And everything seems fine

Can I find
A real true friend
Someone grown up
Who understands
And someone who's been through the same

That's what used to be around
That's what was taken away
I've found someone else who understands
But that's a different story
Not even she can bring back my one real friend

When it all comes crashing down
And the black fills the sky
The rain comes down and drowns
All the things that can't swim
But it only takes what you want to keep
And leaves behind
The things you want to wash away

At home I sit
Trying to cope with al the things
I can't do and can't deal with
I'm growing up before the rest
And understand what life means
I understand that some of them
Will never understand

Books pile up on my desk
All of them can't help me
With problems I am faced with
And I can't talk to them either
I know they won't answer

Maybe I am on the path
To self destruct myself
Or maybe misery is in remission
The misery that tried to drown me
Tried to wash me downstream
But I rose high above the water
I moved up to another level

I couldn't live without the new life
That I have been given
We get one chance at real love
Only find the person once
The person we are meant to be with
I was granted my chance at happiness
And this is tested by the world
Pushing us to the outer limits
But friends aren't meant to help the Devil

I look back on the years before me
And realise what I've dealt with
Without even noticing
And when I reminisce
About what I've left behind
I know how shit my whole life has been
And I don't even care

History is gone and past
History will not repeat itself
And I live for no
But now is dead

It's time that I cannot rely
On the past or present
So all that's left for me to do
Is make my own future
I choose who is there
And how my life is run
I choose that love will never leave
And I will not leave that love behind

I can't help but hate the past
It's something I can't change
I can't help but hate the present
I can't stop what's happening
I can't help but need the future
It's all that I have left