MY GIFT OF PAIN TO THE WORLD


When I look into the ocean
There is nothing else I need
But to look away

When I stare at the sun
My eyes bleed as I scream in pain
And I can't look away

Staring at the ceiling
No holes appear for me
But when my time shall come
I will run into the open state of mind

My ears lost track of where I was
My life took hold of something else
And it bled me dry
Took me high
Floated on the leaves, and the breeze

Drifted into the cold night air
Fell around outside, no care
Dropping to my knees
The dead wind beats at me
Trying to find a way to finish me
To beg to me, and steal from me

When she makes the holes in me
I don't feel anything
I know it's just another way
For my soul to get away from me

Does nobody care? Nobody stares
I'm a freak but no one is aware
They can't see me, or what I must be
I don't even have familiarity
In me

9/11/98