MIND LOSS


Trapped
Can't breathe
Dead
Can't find my way
Don't know what I'm doing now
Can't see where I am

Wanting things to go my way
Need to turn the tables over
Want to flick the light switch
But I can't think straight enough

Slow down, because I need some breath
I need something
Some thought
To occupy me
Keep my sanity from dying
Stop chasing me
Let me reach the end of the tunnel

Stumble my way through the black
The outside world I cannot hear
Because my mind is preyed on
And I let nothing in

Why can't I just break free
Why can't I be let go
Why have I been thrown in this place
Where I can't see
Why can't I hear
Or feel

There's no reason I have to live this way
I have to be released
And I do know how
Truth is I enjoy the punishment
And I slip back to the bottom

Part of me knows
Part of me has the key
But the rest won't find the door
The rest has fallen deep inside
He can't climb out
He doesn't want to
He needs this far too much

Selfish state of mind
Persists to get out alive
But common sense knows that we would die
If we ever left this heavenly hell
So the longer I stay

Sanctuary is what I wanted
Light in certain special ways
That draw me in and hold me tight
I embrace the comfort that keeps me sane
I embrace the warmth that this world brings
I need the cool, easy breeze of nothingness

Something keeps me in
know I need that something
I don't need understanding
But I understand this perfect new life
That my lost mind has fallen into
Easy to know what I need
And what are problems
I thank the bringer of new life