LOST


Looked around and searched the darkness
Sneaking a glance over my shoulder
Paranoid, maybe
I hear the footsteps
I don't know who's they are
Tomorrow I will know that they were mine

I found my past self chasing me
Creeping after me
Hidden in the shadow's I can't see
The one that's stalking me
Is who I used to be
Now he wants me back

When I fell down in the night
I couldn't find a light, or a helping hand
My own soul tortured me
Showed me things that were not there
When I was on my knees
I was on my own
Lost

I reached out for the sun to shine
And the clouds came over blacker
I stumbled through the shame, the pain
I looked for no one else to blame
My own mental fingers pointed straight at me
I could not find my way
I'd lost my way back home
Caught in misery, no name, no aim
I was playing but I could not win this game

It was hurt and pain that dragged me astray
Lost inside a maze of self hate
The tables turn for every one
I still could dream without my sleep

The days of smiling have returned
I'm sure they will not leave
Greater than hate, it fills my heart
I know I'm where I am
I care about the only part I need
Nothing makes a difference any more
It all just feels so blank

Nothing can go wrong now
Nothing hurts me now
I can just breeze through
Nothing bothers me now
Watch the whole world pass me by
Nothing beats me down now

I still can't find my way
I don't know where I'm going
Not caring any more, I'm not alone
Something to want
Something to need
A history building inside of me
The rain is no longer sorrowful
None of it makes no sense to me
I'm lost inside my joy
I never want to find my way out