LOCKED


Trying to get through
Hoping isn't trying though
It would be easier to wish
Upon a falling star
But sometime the star must crash and burn

I need to make a past
I want to be remembered
I don't want to be memory
I can't just let this happen
I draw my breath but never more
I cannot let this hurt go on

I can't complain about
I can to see if I'm right
I don't need things to be harder
It's all trashed anyway

I could try the handle
It wouldn't move
If I gave it oil would it slam shut
I tried the lock once before
I guess I used the wrong key

If I could teach these eyes to see
The interference clouding
Would pry the clouds apart
But paranoia stands still in view
Sharing all my fears of loss potential

I am paranoia
I'm the one who's in the way
Separating what belongs as one
Forcing it into two
Step away is what my mind says
But my heart is way too strong

Leave well enough alone
Caused enough trouble already
Don't enhance it any more
And wipe this selfish mist
From your only window of true care

These things I want to do
I cannot tell myself it's right
Myself won't listen to me
I want to break through
And make it all alright
But nobody listens to my cries
Not even me