Illusion

You strain until you burst
For that one look, the first,
At what you’ve always wanted
But which you’ll never really have.

Your sorry expectation
Becomes your only invitation
Into the world you knew
But which you left far behind.

A time to turn around
Can what is lost be found,
Or do you plan to live and die
On behalf of your mistakes?

You’re the only one to blame
Still we’re very glad you came
To set us up and let us think
We’re better than we are.

There’s one last chance to go
Is betrayal all you know
Or do apologies mean everything?
Intention to deceive.
				(8 November 1998)