FLY AWAY

I once heard that good things
Come to those who wait
If this is true, do bad things
Leave for those who wait

Complication after complication
Problems aren't lonely inside of me
One comforts another
And they breed their colony

Master plan
To burn my soul
To send me into Hell
And collapse that wall of life
That took so long to put together

Breathing is no longer effortless
I have to strive to want to live
It's all screwed up and I can't deal
With all the pain my problems bring

Only knowing one thing for sure
Everything else has two sides, two faces
Friends turn on me, they spin around again
But never realise how much they kill inside me
The problems build their strength again
And then they will attack

Please somebody take me away
Fly me far where I can stay
With the one I love, just us together
I want to lose myself now, and forever

How can I tell who really cares
And who is out to hurt me
There's bound to be a new problem
With a so called friend who
I discover doesn't care

None of these people know what they want
And none of them will even get that
But I don't want revenge
In spite of their attempts on my life
All I want is peace and understanding

I may be asking too much
From a bunch of people whose lives are jokes
But when they have to deal with my old problems
They'll see what they have done to me
And why I can't stand for any of their shit


I only say I like my father
To keep him and others happy
How stupid that I can't tell the truth
Because I fear too much for his feelings

If I truly hated him
I'd tell him what I thought
Without a care for him
But it seems I care for him enough
To not want to hurt his feelings

It isn't hate that I feel
I just wish he was gone
And out of my life

Just another complication
That I don't need
He keeps me from the one I love
Saying I should think of him too
Well, if he wasn't such a bastard
He'd still have me in our old family
But I'm glad he's left my house
And I long for him to leave this state

I've led a shit of a life
I've got through it all to find love
But this new life is just as hard
Before I didn't realise the problems
Until they had passed over
But the problems now are right in front of me
And I'll blow it all away
And pretend that I don't care

I wish it would all go away
I wish my 'friends' would grow up
My father can just fuck off
And I want to fly away