BACK TO THE START

Falling in love was the worst thing I've done
For it's all gone away and I'm left all alone
To try and rebuild, yet I've not broken down
Something happened to me and I'm no longer around

I know why this happened and I cannot admit
To myself or to others I'm too tired to live
I leave myself open and get cut deeper still
As I'm hit on the scars that have not yet healed

I know I'll never be free and I won't pass along
Through the terror that builds up inside my dead soul
Fear of knowing that I'm nothing again
As I was when I had nothing to offer or give

I've been beaten down and I thought it wouldn't come
And the fear in my heart was pushed out so I ran
BLind into love and blind through the void
That's created for me by my own disbelief

It didn't hit hard
I didn't feel hurt
Only happiness that all was gone
Now I'm saddened that all has gone

10/4/99